i just watched finish "1 litre of tears"
its a japanese drama which is based on the life story of this girl who had some degenerative disease (affects her brain la) such that she slowly loses her ability to use and control her muscles, limbs and speech. it shows how she copes with it and how her life changed after it la...and how abt the ppl ard her..
its very touching
it shows the unconditional love a family has
and show that some ppl will love u no matter what
its very sad cus of the struggles she has within herself..
she's very optimistic but at times the problems just seems to great for her
however ultimately she still learns to live optimistically despite being unable to do much and have to be fully dependent on others
yaaa..
i watch this drama
then i cried quite alot
its considerably shorter than other dramas as it has only 11 episodes
so its quite short and sweet
fine it wasn't sweet
its salty cus of the tears tt u'd cry
but anyways
it made me think about life la
it shows that no matter what happens to you, it can be made to be good or bad.
it all depends on the attitude that you have against the matter
we shld accept wat happens
and then try to make the most of the situation
its so easy to just type this out
but i know actually doing this in real life
its not so easy
its not easy at all
it takes a lot of courage
which i usually lack
o wells
i dunno
we shld appreciate the things and the ppl that we have ard us now
we dun know what tomorrow brings
so we shld make best of today
as much as we can anyway
so i thought
wat if i were to die in like 5 years
what wld i do before i die..
so this is wat i came up with
1) get married
- i know that if given that situation, this wld be really selfish of me to ask for and really unfair to the guy that i marry. cus he'd be marrying a dying person. but still...before i die, i'd want to get married to the guy that i love; wear a pretty wedding dress and all.
2) quit studying chem engin.
-i wun live long enough to get anywhere. so maybe i shld just go work or something
3) work somewhere where i get to help/influence/work with little kids
-i all along want to be a teacher. but since i cant be one as i wld have no qualifications, i dun mind being a teacher's aide too
4) learn how to cook well and cook delicious food for the ppl that i love
5) meet up with everyone of my friends

yupp...tts like what i have thought of. o wells...
i think i just got too much time on my hands tts y i think of such stuff
hahah
o wells
moving in to raffles hall on sunday
wld be living on my own
kinda apprehensive about moving there
ya i wld really be independent now
no more mom nagging me all the time
but still
i'd miss my room
miss my tv, my toilet, my bed and everything
i'd miss my house
i'd miss my grandma's cooking
i dunno
though i'm usually home alone
or even if i'm not we dun talk much
either way
i feel like i'm safe
cus i'm at home and that my parents are nearby if i need them
but when i move to the hostel
i'd be all alone
its scary
wat if i cannot adapt to the life there
wat if i cannot fit in
wat if the ppl that live next door to me dun like me
(i live in a single room cus i dun want to share a room with a total stranger)
sighs
i worry alot
i know
and i have this looong looong list of all the things that i need to bring
sighs
i hate packing
cus i'm always scared that i wld forget something
haiz
hopefully hall life wun be that bad
i hope